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Now that I have Arrived

Tropical Trail Does transition ever end? For those who are transgender this question will likely be answered differently over time. I used to think that it would all be different once I transitioned to living as the woman I am. Wrong. Well I suppose things are very different, but the things which really matter have not changed. I am still basically the same person, inside. My personality has changed a bit, however my thoughts and beliefs have not. If any change has occurred there it has nothing to do with being transgender. Thoughts and beliefs change because we choose them too. So let me get into the power of chemical wonder, hormones. You are what you eat and if you are taking hormones or even if you are getting them through the environment, food, drink, etc. things will change drastically. The question of which comes first is hard to prove if not impossible. Are we transgender because of environmental chemical influence or because of genetic, inborn causes? I feel it is a combination of both. And most likely it is a different combination of both for each of us. During transition our outer world and appearance changes drastically, but as for the inner world, not so much.  So let’s make sure we are clear here, I am speaking of gender. My gender has not changed and is clearer now, so the success here is that I now know myself better than I ever have! Perhaps this is the point of the whole experience.

What is not so clear is my sexuality. I am attracted to the female form more so than the male form, but both are beautiful and enjoyable. The most attract feature to me is personality and chemistry. Certain people are just exciting to me for reasons I have no clue. So by definition this makes me Pansexual although lately I have chosen asexuality. All the books I read insist that sexual orientation is fixed at birth so who am I to argue? I will say that social expectation is a strong factor in shaping the behavior of an individual, especially when they are young. The fear of persecution has lead many a person astray, including myself. So now that I have arrived, (lol) Who am I? I am the same person who started this journey only I am more aware of my nature and my desires. I am a person who dresses and acts a certain way whether it conforms to social construct or not. I am a person who is being the most loving I know how and seeking to expand this state of being. I choose Love and forgive any other perception. I live in a loving world and for this I am deeply grateful.

Sequoia Elisabeth

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Gender and Separation

Gender as used by the ego mind is a tool for separation. (Definition of ego and many other words used in this blog) Pitting men against women or perhaps leaving the person in a no-mans land of intersex where one is all alone. The goal of this blog is to show that gender (and biological sex too) are just tools to separate us. Yes, this physical world is made up of many different things and this in its very definition is separation, it is ego mind! Right mindedness shows us the truth, all there is is Love.

Please understand there is no right or wrong and in fact this world is illusion/maya. The ego mind wants to be special so it manufactures all the differences we know and value today. This applies to gender differences as well as all the others such as physical, mental, and ability differences. The ego mind is just as capable as the Right Mind so not all these illusions are negative. The splendor of earth is just a way to make you happy with your creation and thus hold you here. The beauty of a flower, the attractiveness of sex, and the pleasure from sensation is all the Ego’s way of holding us here.  God or Right mindedness is woven in here also by Holy Spirit if one asks which will be discussed further as we proceed.

Those who have experienced the ecstasy of the Divine know what I write here to be true. It is described as orgasm x infinity. All we ever get here in the Maya is a glimpse of the Truth. The doorway out is through Right Mind or Holy Spirit. This is the teaching of ACIM (A Course in Miracles) so don’t take my word for it, explore this yourself. The teachings of Law of One also lead to this same understanding. The point is to look within the self and find the Oneness. The connection to all there is goes by many names and the ego works constantly to offer up look-a-likes.

This blog was going to be about gender but ended up being about separation/illusion/maya. So here are the ways in which I notice the ego mind at work, which I then practice forgiveness (non-judgment w/ a focusing the mind on Love). Right mindedness will never lead you astray, ask you to harm another or yourself. It is not always positive, but it is always in the Highest and Best good for all. Remember that good and bad are the Ego’s conventions they are not “real”. So what is “real”? The ultimate question here in the illusion/maya! God is all there is… other names for God include Love, Peace, and Joy. I suggest reading Gary Renard’s books for a wonderful explanation of what is the truth. Other books which I have found enlightening on this topic are – The Law of One, Butterflies are Free to Fly, and The Voice for Love. I am sure there are others so get in touch with your inner guide and be aware the ego mind is always out to trick you and even kill you. Of course we know this is impossible, you are immortal because you are not your body, nor are you male, female, ugly, fat, stupid, genius, sexy, or anything else having to do with having a body.

Let me end this blog by saying one simple truth… I Love You. How could I not? Love is all there is!!!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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All Death is Suicide a Tribute to TDOR

The world is indeed evolving and I am glad to be a part of it.  The subject for today’s blog is not new but it is also near and dear to my heart.  I repost this blog in honor of Transgender Day of Remembrance and to those who teach us the lesson of Love.  Remember to remain open to new ideas and never judge others for the path they choose.

 

Many believe that to be murdered was a choice the “murder” chose, thus believing in victims and perpetrators.  But what if these choices were made long before you were even born?  Our path is laid out for us and all we have to do is accept it or not.  Of course when you are born you pass through the veil of forgetting and thus do not remember the contracts you made in your life between lives.  There are ways to remember, but perhaps that is not the point.  Perhaps we are to learn to love those who would harm us and in doing so understand there is no one else.  All seeming “perps” are of our own creation.  Life is for the living and we do have choices. The choice is whether to accept your life as you have created it or not!  Another of my favorite quotes, “Resistance is futile” (The Borg, Star Trek)  Love is the answer, everything else are just excuses.  Consider the following quotes and make up your own mind.

 

“There is no such thing as an accident; everything that happens to you in every moment of every day is an exact vibrational match (thanks to the Law of Attraction) to the dominant thoughts you are thinking.

 

No exceptions, ever.

 

So as this applies to TDOR, fear is a self-fulfilling prophesy!  And, just to really throw the cat among the pigeons (as the saying goes), here is one of Abraham’s most controversial (but completely true) sayings…

 

All death is suicide.

 

…which is a natural conclusion anyway if there is no such thing as an accident.” Stingray

 

It seems that everything is a choice, even death!  This goes right down to the color of your eyes and your genetic structure.  Not that all choice is conscious.  These choices were made before you were born and through thoughts, words, and actions taken by you along the path.

 

“However, the fear of death is unnecessary.  The truth is that all death is suicide.  At its core, everything is a choice.  There is an awakening occurring on the planet for those who are paying attention in which we are realizing how much choice we actually have in the creation of our reality.  As we accept our power we must let go of the desire to be accepted or understood by those who are stuck in mainstream thought.  This willingness to transcend the fears of others and become a pioneer is crucial to personal evolution.

In life, a central challenge is to let go of the idea that your body is decaying with time.  It is not.  It is actually recreating itself constantly.”  Unification.com

 

“In the Conversations with God Series by Neale Donald Walsh, God says that all death is suicide, and it is just a matter of whether we want to do it quickly, or over time with eating bad food, breathing polluted air, smoking, drinking etc. If someone is in pain, God does not want one to suffer, and does not blame someone for leaving their body quickly. If someone was to love you so much they would understand that, to keep you is selfish, everyone is sad when someone dies, not because so much they think something bad happened to them, but they cry for themselves, that what they want is no longer with them. Take this story for instance I was so in love with this guy, we lived together for a year, but I noticed he would go in the bedroom all sad and close the door sometimes. I found out he was looking at pictures of his kids he loved so much and his wife he was still in love with. I planned it out and talked him into moving to the city where his children and ex lived, and when we got there I said this is where I drop you off, I am moving on. I loved him enough to let him go and try to work things out with his wife and to be there for his children. Now, that is love.”  Kathy Miller

Remember that every thought, word, and action leads to your experience in this world and ultimately to your fate.  We are guided by higher powers, no matter how you think of them, Divine Being, God, or Higher Self.  Listen to this guidance and you will make it through the maze of life to the Promised Land.  There is no right or wrong way home.  And there are no Victims, only Volunteers!

🙂 Sequoia Elisabeth

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It’s Not About Surgery

Anyone in the Transgender community knows what the treatment for Gender Dysphoria is.  As stated by WPATH, Treatment for gender dysphoria varies with severity of symptoms, but may include counseling, crossdressing, contra-hormone therapy, and surgery.  Here is an article which explains the nuances quite well.  It is so very important to emphasize the counseling rather than the surgery in my opinion for several reasons.  This obviously will be different for each person, so take this with a grain of salt.

The Transgender journey to me is all about acceptance, both of who you are and what you have to work with.  So if someone goes out and modifies their appearance and/or function (SRS/GRS) does this really change who they are?  This may or may not help to alleviate the perceptions of the individual and those who meet this transgender individual.  From my experience, invasive treatment is really beside the point and offers nothing more than something to compare with.  Meaning, you have a different presentation and perhaps this feels good at first, but after a while you realize it just doesn’t matter.  The roles you play are different, but you are still that same person at the core (with the same mental/emotional issues).  Let’s face it, we are all playing roles in society and these roles seem to define us, but do they really? Does the fact that you are working as a mechanic or a mother or a manager really make you who you are?  Or is it the other way around?  You define the roles!  At least this is the way it should be in my opinion.  So by defining a role you decide if women are good mechanics or if hair dressers are bitchy.  You; not your gender defines the role.

So the transition journey is really about coming to an acceptance of who you are or to say it more simply, liking yourself!   We all go through this process and transgender people have just chosen to do it by way of gender.  Substance abuse is another way to “find yourself” and come to an acceptance.  There are many challenges we each unconsciously choose as our own method of spiritual growth!  You are probably engaged in this process right now in your own way.  The good news is no matter which path you choose the Universe conspires to make it the most productive learning lesson it can be.

We each define our own parameters for what is acceptable to a certain extent; however we are each a part of the whole and society is one aspect of that whole.  So why do we allow society to dictate these parameters?  Because we are part of the whole!  So then it becomes a matter of conformity.  I find it interesting that most people consider themselves non-conformists, but they are still a part of society and in their own way conforming to the greater whole (myself included).  It is my understanding that we each make up one part of this whole and that we are each different.

So why not just be this different person and stop trying to conform to a perceived reality?  This is in fact my vow, to be myself and be happy with who I am.  Yes, I was born male and yes I feel most comfortable in women’s clothing, so what?  I am attracted to loving people, not to body parts.  I wish to be loved just like everyone else!  And I wish to be that loving person within my own comfort zone, which with some effort is constantly expanding.

The point here is that surgery and hormones are a tool for an effect, but they do not change who you truly are!  If others have difficulty with your appearance or behavior that is actually their issue not yours.  Continue being your authentic self and loving it!  Why? Because the other choices are just not any fun, at least not in the long run.

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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Like a Reversible Sweater

Human beings are like a reversible sweater.  They have both a man and a woman within each of them or if you prefer a feminine and a masculine.  This has nothing to do with sex which is nothing more than the physical aspect of the body.  It is time we started thinking of human life as multiphasic.  We each have many levels which shift and flow over time, some of us more than others of course.  Some never reverse their sweater and thus never get to know their full self.  Part of doing inner exploration is opening all the doors without fear and embracing what you find.  The spirit of acceptance without any preconceived ideas of what is proper or right is a must.  The idea of congruence must also be questioned.  Why do men have to have penises and women vaginas?  Like I said sex and reproduction is a whole other topic and at this stage of the game is becoming irrelevant with over 7 billion people on earth.  So let us move on beyond this primal need to replicate.  Instead let us get to know the self before we go about making more selves.

What I know is that there is much more to life than this concept of “me”.  I exist beyond this body and will always exist with or without the body I currently experience as “me”.  I am not “me”, nor am I “you”.  We are One.  The understanding of Oneness changes the entire game… it changes everything!  There is no “me” or “you”, only we.  Like a kaleidoscope of humanness we are constantly shifting and morphing, so to get stuck on one expression of this is a game ender.  The meaning we place on words is not fixed, but many think that it is.  You are not the “you” you believe yourself to be!!  Let it go.  And above all else stop trying to “fix” yourself.  We are here to discover (dis-cover) who we are, not to manipulate or manufacture a self (a false self).  Surgery, drugs, and other external methods just end up hiding the true self, the authentic self.  Please do not be drawn into this game of the “six-million dollar person”.  No other can make you better than you already are!  Love that which is the self.  In order to do this you must really get down and see yourself… look within, without expectations, fear, or limits.  Feel who you are… close your eyes and be not deceived.  Let the Journey begin… once again, for like all journeys they tend to repeat.

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How Far to Take Your Transition

How far to take your Transition

This is both an easy question to answer and a complicated one.  The short answer is as far as you wish.  The long answer includes the questions, Why am I doing this?  What is my end goal? And just Who am I?

Knowing your dreams and goals are key to success of any kind.  Transition is no different.  This is not about wants or even needs, but desires.  “Do not confuse desire with expectation, or with need. Desire has an entirely different quality to it. You can desire something without needing or requiring it. That little difference makes everything work. That little difference is the whole trick. Desire, do not Require. To desire propels. To require compels. Life will not be compelled, but it can be coaxed…” (Neale Donald Walsch)

The question of why is often a wild goose chase, however the ego seems to thrive on this question so answer it.  Why are you transitioning?   Be thorough in your answer too.  Think of every aspect of your life which motivates your actions.  Why do you feel incongruent?  Is this really it or are you making excuses now?  Life is an experience so feel the experience and make note of all those moments which elate you.  Focus on the good feelings, but do not get the idea this is what it is all about.

What is your end goal in transition and how important is it to succeed?  From my experience the end goal shifted as I transitioned.  I was not willing to do all it took to reach what I thought was my end goal.  The point here is I was influenced by my environment and as I grew in understanding my goals shifted.  This is a personal choice for each of us, so stick to your desires.  Hormones and Surgery are tools to enhance the experience, just remember they come at a high price (not only $$$ either).  There are no right ways to transition, only your way.

Ultimately transition comes down to expressing who you are, …if you can figure that out.  So just Who are YOU?  My experience tells me that I am not a body, but a Spiritual Being. So, on this level of form I am constantly changing.  Each day is a new day!!  Be on the lookout for cycles also.  Life moves in cycles and they tend to repeat.  Make everything Ok, meaning accept who you are in that particular moment and enjoy it.  While things tend to repeat it’s only because you need that lesson again.  This is a beautiful paradox.  You can do the same thing a 100 times and each experience is slightly different and yet the experiences we probably do not wish to repeat happen again and again unless you’re paying attention.  Did you catch that?  You are exactly where, who, and what you’re supposed to be in that moment.

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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How is my Transition Serving Mankind?

How is my transition serving mankind?  And if it is not serving then why do it?

Gender transition comes in as many different flavors as there are people transitioning.  The standing authorities from WPATH as well as others say that CHT, contra-hormone therapy and GRS, genital realignment surgery are the best way to treat Gender Dysphoria.  My response to this is perhaps on a superficial and purely material plane, but we are not just animals or bodies.  We are multi-dimensional beings – Spiritual Beings who are having a human experience!

Metaphysics teaches us that we have a body at each level of the Chakra system. So gender transition is something we encounter in forth body. Before this it is incomprehensible and thus the reaction we get from so many others.  “The first four bodies and their chakras were split into two. The duality ends with the fifth body.  As I said before, the difference between male and female lasts until the fourth body; after that it ends. If we observe very closely all duality belongs to the male and the female. Where the distance between male and female is no more, at that very point all duality ceases. The fifth body is nondual. It does not have two possibilities but only one.” (Osho, The Seven Bodies and the Seven Chakras).

So from this we discover that Gender Dysphoria is simply a longing for Fifth Body.  It is our realization of non-duality!  It is not to be fixed then, but celebrated!  As we move from one point to another there is always an in between.  This can be uncomfortable and even painful.  However once you realize what is happening that you are only in between two points which on the human level are far apart the journey becomes easier and even fascinating.

My original question which started this blog has now morphed into a realization that transition does not serve mankind directly but only through the individual as they realize their oneness and find non-duality.  The why is simple then, because to get there we must go thru here.  The why is simply it is on the path.  There is no right or wrong way to get where you are going, so don’t fret over details like should I have surgery or not.  Do what feels best at the time and trust what the Universe offers up.  If you are meant to do something then the resources will be made manifest.  And if they do not appear it means all is well as it is.  We call this Faith.

Love n Light,

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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I am as God created me!

I am as God created me!  So why are you feeling dysphoria?  Why do you think there is something wrong with you?  (too fat, too tall, wrong genitalia, wrong hair color or eye color, etc, etc.)  The imperfections are not of God’s making.  The imperfections and the feelings of incongruence (dysphoria) come from the Ego.  Allow me to explain this world to you.

This physical world we live in here is the creation of the Ego Mind, the aspect of you which believes itself separate from God.  In truth this world is a dream and often it is a dream within a dream!  It does not matter how many ‘echos’ of the One which are created, the point is there is only One and this one is God, the all there is.  If you love movies, theatre, or story-telling then you know dreams… this life you think you are living is no more real than the stories you experience on TV, Movies, Theatre, or a story-telling stage.  What makes it seem so real?  Ego mind!

Adam and Eve are the original Ego story, not that they are real either.  This Ego is an aspect of God which wished to see what separate means and so created a separate world, this world where we sit today, or seem to sit today.  In reality no one has gone anywhere!  We are all still in the loving arms of God, yet asleep and dreaming of life.

As the Course in Miracles states, the dream was but a second or flash and all that is or was or will be happened and we returned to God.  The “reality” we experience now is simply an echo of this dream, thus the dream within a dream…

The next question then is how do we awaken from this dream?  First of all by understanding who “I” is.  These pesky pronouns are very confusing!  I, me, you, us, we, they are simply different aspect of the One.  Please understand there is only ONE.  The delusion is that you are separate from me and that they exist at all!

This probably seems farfetched and from the perspective of the Ego mind it is.  Step back from this perspective and see through the eyes of Holy Spirit, feel through Holy Spirit.  It may take a while so don’t be in a rush.  I have been working in this for years.  The Truth becomes clearer every day though, so I keep the Faith and move forward.  This takes us to the next step, acceptance.

Accept things as they seem (even though we know otherwise).  Imagine you are a character in a movie.  Can that character get out of the movie?  Not hardly; they must play their part to the end.  So why not enjoy your part/role in this elaborate story of life!  It is much better than choosing misery.  Be the best you (whatever your role is at the time) and Shine!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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ps. If you would like to read more on this, I highly recommend Butterflies Fly for Free by Stephen Davis, as well as A Course in Miracles (ACIM).

 

 

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Transgender Journey about Acceptance

The transgender journey is really about acceptance, both your acceptance of yourself and others acceptance of you.  The second one is a gauge to let you know how you are doing on the first one.  Being self-loving is not the same thing as being self-serving or self-centered.  In fact they are totally different.

How can this be?  Very simply, we are one.  There is only One self… The Self.  By accepting and loving your self you are in fact accepting and loving all selves.  Don’t worry it does not mean you are approving of the self that murders or rapes.  You are just accepting them for who they are with a knowing that they are one possibility. Right and wrong are just human concepts.  We are each an expression of the whole, a slice of a very large pie.  Love it all!!

I ask that you contemplate this reality.  You are you and I am me and we are One!  Being transgender is just one expression of the whole and even this has a multitude of expressions just as being a heterosexual white male does.  Don’t let appearances fool you either.  Just because you may see a woman, they may see a man or you may read them as gay and they identify as pansexual.  You may think of them as a nice person, when they have done horrible things no one knows about thus thinking of themselves as a monster.  Love it all.

What it comes down to is Mind.  You’ve heard the expressions “never mind” or “I don’t mind”.  This is precisely so!  We exist in mind.  The material world we experience is a projection of this mind. (read Butterflies are Free to Fly by Stephen Davis and see the Holographic Universe video series for more on this)  So the acceptance is about accepting what the mind has created and making it all OK.  Some would call this forgiveness, so forgive it all.  None of it is “real”, so don’t worry there are no Ultimate consequences only temporary consequences to our actions.  Karma is real in the world of matter, so yes your actions do matter. (Pun intended)

If this blog confuses you then no worries, it confused me at first too.  Be curious and inquisitive.  The answer to your question is there… under that spot you prefer not to look.  Don’t be afraid, it is OK to peek in there.  You may be surprised at the wonder you find.  I am.

Love n Light,

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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What do we really know about Gender?

What do we really know about gender?  It seems we know far more about physical sex since this is tangible.  Both Gender Identity and Sexual Orientation are constructions of the mind thus making them difficult to pin down.  It seems now they are not even “hardwired into the brain” as once believed.  (All thoughts come from the mind not the brain just in case you were unaware of this).  What makes us so malleable?  The old debate between Nature and Nurture seems to make vacillations from one to the other on a regular basis.  Perhaps it is neither!?!   This just came out and changes the game once again.

“A team of researchers successfully changed the gender in the brains of newborn rats from female to male, according to findings published this week in Nature Neuroscience. “Physically, these animals were females, but in their reproductive behavior, they were males,” Bridget Nugent, the lead author said…” (Reed, Carey 2015)

What does this mean to those who identify as Transgender?  This new finding would indicate that our status is the result of some chemical change presumably in the environment.  It is just as likely to occur after birth as before.  Perhaps it was the miscarriage drug given in the 50’s and 60’s, Diethylstilbestrol (DES) or perhaps it is in the food we eat.  Soy is now found in much of our foods especially since many children are lactose intolerant now and use soy as an alternative.  (I have personally felt the effects of phytoestrogens from foods like soy and flax).  There are many other sources of estrogen in the environment and it would follow that there are estrogen inhibitors also.  This would explain the gender incongruences and dysphoria’s that some experience throughout their lives.

Even sexual orientation is affected by the hormones running through our bodies.  Before starting hormone therapy I was curious about sex with men but had never been driven to seek out sex with them.  I was more stimulated by women.  After taking estrogen for some time my desires shifted to men and at the peak of treatment with a high dose I was passionate about it.  Now that I have no testosterone and take no estrogen (levels normal for a female of my age) I don’t really have any sexual drive.  The conclusion I would draw from my experience is that our hormones are behind our sexual drive and perhaps even our sexual orientation.

The question then is perhaps instead of using Contra-hormone therapy to treat Gender Dysphoria or Incongruency a neuter approach is more appropriate.  I am sure this would depend on the age of the individual and their desired outcome, but having no sex drive seems more desirable than one which drives you crazy (personal opinion).  This is not about sexual reproduction, because we already have far more people in this world than can be easily sustained and we certainly don’t need more egos running around!

Concerning gender identity the jury is still out.  It does seem that it is also malleable and if you want to be a girl or a boy that option exists.  My question would be Why?  Why do you feel wrong in your body?  Do you really even have a body?  Perhaps this is all just an insane delusion after all!  Question Everything!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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Identity Crisis

Here are two definitions of what a girly girl is which came up in a discussion recently.  We discovered that we each had a slightly different understanding of this term even though most of the group identified with being a girly girl or at least wanting to be this.  The question I posed was Why?

“Girly girl is a slang term for a girl or woman who chooses to dress and behave in an especially feminine style, such as wearing pink, using make-up, using perfume, dressing in skirts, dresses and blouses, and talking about relationships and other activities which are associated with the traditional gender role of a girl.” (Wikipedia.com 2014)

“Girly Girl: an extremely feminizing girl. A girly girl’s favorite color is usually pink, but also likes other pretty colors like purple, baby blue, and pastels. A girly girl: Cares a lot about how she looks and dresses; wears very feminine, cute, stylish, and sexy clothes like skirts, dresses, cute tops and stylish low-rise jeans; likes wearing high heels; wears a lot of pink; does her hair up nice; wears a lot of makeup; does her nails a lot; loves jewelry; usually not into sports; reads fashion magazines; makes herself as little like a guy as possible; usually into guys as more than just friends but doesn’t have to be into guys like that because sometimes a girly girl can be a femme or lipstick lesbian. Also a girly girl says “like”, “totally”, “Oh my gosh!”, “Oh my God”, and “whatever!” a lot.” (Urban Dictionary 2014, grammar corrected by author)

Ultimately it comes down to being Authentic.  Is this ‘Girly Girl’ your authentic self?  It is also interesting to note that many transwomen have been in relationships with them or want to be.  The question that nags at me is how does this relate to identity?  Does our partner really have to resonate with our own identity?  Isn’t this what these relationships really represent?  Most people choose a partner who embodies their own ideals!  People who they feel fill a void within themselves.

Perhaps this is what drives the Transgender identity.  Sometime a rock is a rock.  Is a rock ever really a tree?  The topic of gender identity can be a confusing one and I certainly do not claim to have it all figured out.  All I can do is work from my own feelings and understandings.  So I invite you to reflect on this topic, to question reality, and to search for your soul!

This quest has been a lifetime journey for me and I welcome the perspective of others who also consciously ask “who am I”?    If you identify as a ‘Girly Girl’ what does this mean to you and why do you identify this way?  However you identify… why have any identity at all?  Is it possible to not have an identity?  Maybe you could un-identify yourself with anything!  The question then moves to how does one relate to the world?

A Course In Miracles (ACIM) states all identity separates and this is insane!  The idea of being separate from anything else is exactly what the Course is undoing.  Nothing is separate from Source (God).  God is all there is, so since there is nothing else to be separate from this idea is false.  Perhaps then the only identity we need is “I am”.  The name of God is “I am that I am”.  When embraced with a comma we experience true reality… “I am that, I am”.

Sequoia Elisabeth J

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What Love Is

A Transgender lifetime is about balancing polarity, metaphysically speaking.  We don’t choose it per se, nature always balances its energy and thus it is our evolution that brings us here.  Too many gay male lifetimes leads me here.  This is not to say that being gay is wrong, just that life needs to be in balance.  Ultimately it is all about Love.  Love is the only ‘reality’ and who you are and who you love matters not… love is all that really matters.

So few actually understand what love is.  I ran across this quote recently which explains it nicely.  I offer this up for our mutual understanding!

“What is considered as love by the majority of people is not really true love at all but a mixture of the desire to love and the desire to be loved and acknowledged. There is often an over-emphasis to show and evoke sentiment in order to be emotionally comfortable in one’s own life.

This type of human love, which is often attaching and dependent, comes from a place of personal need and self-interest. Although illusion, this pseudo love has been a very necessary experiential phase in our human evolution while helping us to learn more about the self through dualistic relationships of all types.

We are now progressing beyond personality love and into an expansion of consciousness that realizes the Self as a vibrant and powerful center of fundamental, Universal Love and blessed with an expanded capacity to serve the human race.

Divine Love is not affectionate, emotional, or sentimental. (Bold emphasis mine.) This liberating intelligence knows no opposite nor does it come from a place of need. It is a neutralizing, cohesive force and its transforming power is boundless.
Divine Love wields the cohesive power that guides the universe, leading and sustaining everything into integration, unity and inclusiveness.

This love is pure reason. Its wisdom clarifies and impels motive. This brings magnetic attraction into play to produce cohesion, resulting in the unification of consciousness. (This is what I mean by being Transgender is a natural balancing.)

…We are here to serve as the potent collective expression of Divine Love in action.

It is important to understand that Divine Love is group love. This is love for the WHOLE, which is a completely different demonstration than the personality’s affection for friends, children, or a mate. (Italic emphasis mine)

You will know that the fire of true love is radiating inside you if your love for all people is greater than the love of yourself and of your individual relationships. You do not even think about personal happiness because your focus in life is upon goodwill to others.

You will know when you have reached this level of vibration when you can smile at every person that you confront in your life without passing any thought of judgment. Instead, you look into their eyes and only see the beauty that exists in their soul. The purity of this love gives constantly as its inherent nature, requiring nothing back in return.” (Children of the Sun)

My version of what Love is can be found in the eBook, Livin Large Chap. 12, which can be read online or downloaded at no charge.  Imperfection is the Human way so forgive your imperfect love, I do.  In fact, this is my Journey of Love… Forgiveness.

“Forgiveness is unknown in Heaven, where the need for it would be inconceivable. However, in this world, forgiveness is a necessary correction for all the mistakes that we have made. To offer forgiveness is the only way for us to have it, for it reflects the law of Heaven that giving and receiving are the same. Heaven is the natural state of all the Sons of God as He created them. Such is their reality forever. It has not changed because it has been forgotten.

Forgiveness is the means by which we will remember. Through forgiveness the thinking of the world is reversed. The forgiven world becomes the gate of Heaven, because by its mercy we can at last forgive ourselves. Holding no one prisoner to guilt, we become free. Acknowledging Christ in all our brothers, we recognize His Presence in ourselves. Forgetting all our misperceptions, and with nothing from the past to hold us back, we can remember God. Beyond this, learning cannot go. When we are ready, God Himself will take the final step in our return to Him.” (ACIM.org)

Sequoia Elisabeth

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Why Did You Transition?

Transition is a process everyone goes through at one point or another on the ‘Journey of Love’.  Speaking through the perspective of one who has transitioned gender I must question this entire process and I do quite often!  Here are my thoughts on the subject, mostly directed to other Trans* individuals.

Often I hear other Trans* people saying they transitioned to be themselves or to be true to their soul.  While I do believe this is true on the soul level, it is not the reason we transition on the physical level or even the emotional level.  Let’s be honest with each other here, esp. with yourself.  Just admit that you transitioned in an attempt to fit into society.  What you really desire is to “belong”.  There are always those who transitioned for the sex, but that is another story.

This is flawed on several levels.  First off, as a member of the Human Race you belong.  As a soul body you belong and are loved by many other souls, esp. those in your soul group.  Whether those souls are with you on this journey is not important.  Connection exists always, even and esp. after death.  You are never alone.

By our very nature we (trans*persons) are a contradiction to known and accepted norms, but in some way each individual is different.  No body fits in!  So I ask you, “what is the truth here?”, “why did you transition?”  Perhaps it was to make life easier or so you thought.  Here is my reasoning: I am very feminine anyway, so why shouldn’t I just be the feminine male was born as and stop hiding my feelings.  I used to tell myself, feminine men are sexy to other women, we have so much in common and it is easy to relate to one another.  This theory was supported in two marriages which did not fail till it came to sex.  In fact, those around me also supported this perspective, feminine men are attractive… just look at how many female friends gay men have!  OK, so that is all well and good, but I am not attracted to men, but to women.  Does this make me a lesbian?  A male lesbian just flies in the face of reason!

So being honest here, perhaps you are attracted to men, but this being unacceptable in the average hetero world, your feelings have been repressed or you are attracted to females strictly because you are in a male body.  So there you have it, a female brain, male genitalia and thus the confusion!  Do we follow the brain or the body?  This is of course not including the heart which in the end really runs the show.  So no we don’t transition for sex, this is about gender after all.

Incongruency is the real issue for Trans* persons.  The real honest reason we transition is in order to attain a livable level of congruency.   I am not convinced I will ever feel congruent in a human body, but there again that is another story.  Perhaps you feel the same way.  The bottom line is simply in order to relate in a dualistic world you must be one or the other and since you don’t fit where you are, then you must fit as the other!  Wrong!!

Here is another view point using history as our guide.  Diversity, variance, and random order are the very nature of life on earth.  There is no duality, but our society has forced one into existence and when you force things, they break.  Our society is broken in more ways than one.  Can we fix it?  Do we really want to?  It really is not hard you know.  Looking back Native peoples have embrace their Trans* members for the most part as they found their way depending on their inner nature.  Each culture naturally stratifies with each member finding their place based on the greater societal structure.  So where does this put Trans* members of our society (western society)?

What if from a personal perspective you simply accepted things as they are.  If your male yet feminine, then just accept that.  If you feel one way, but are equipped in the opposite then accept this as nature’s choice.  If you are Ok with it, others will be too.  At first you will probably experience resistance but with consistency things will change and you will find congruency with not only yourself but the world at large as well.  Surgery is a tool to make the illusion of this world seem congruent, but if you do not make this shift in your own consciousness all you have done is deepen your ego’s hold on you.  So when you say you are being true to yourself, then be honest and figure out who you are!  I can assure you it is not your ego!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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Polarity Speaking

Relationships can be complex with all the drama, expectations, and emotional turmoil involved, however they don’t need to be.  Simplicity is a welcome approach in all your best relationships. Sometimes we need the drama in order to work out karma and to get to know ourselves better, so these relationships usually happen early on in life.  The quicker you learn your lessons the less you need the complex relationships.

Each person has many facets to their being and we are here today to discuss the sexual aspect.  “The second chakra is the sacral chakra associated with sensual movement and with sexuality. The information contained in the second chakra relates to relationship, emotions, intimacy, sexuality, creativity, work and money.” (Candess, 2014)

One part of sexuality is attraction; some call this sexual orientation, although we are going to be a little more specific.  Polarity is “the state of having two opposite or contradictory tendencies, opinions, or aspects. The polarity between male and female” (Google, 2014) What we are speaking about today is the energy between us which we either find attractive or repulsive just like in a magnet.

Each person generates their own magnetic field which fluctuates over time and some can see this as their aura.  This can get a bit complicated so no worries if you don’t get it all first time through.  I am also not going to get terribly deep with this, so if you need to go deeper I suggest doing your research, meditating on Polarity, and experimenting with these principles.

Have you ever been with someone who you were intensely attracted to, who just ‘turned you on’ by being around them?  This is what I am talking about and I call this polarity.  If not, then perhaps you have negative polarity or your system just needs to be charged.  If you remember from high school, magnets are either (+) or (-) charged and attract their opposites.  On the human scale feminine is (-) and masculine (+).  Notice I did not say male or female here because sometimes males are (-) and females (+), we call this transgender.  Transgender also is often neutral or neuter in sexual terms.

So you can see the bit about sexual orientation is off base here, because this is set at birth.  You are attracted to opposite, same sex or somewhere in between and this is hard wired and cannot be changed.  What can be changed is your polarity!  Those who are good at this are bisexual or pansexual as I prefer to call them.  Bisexual as a word is deceptive because it implies only two sexes and as we all know by now that sex and gender are spectrums or scales, not either/or.

Polarity is really simple for heterosexuals because they are strongly charged and usually specifically attracted to certain people and as the scale shifts it gets more complicated in the middle and less complicated again on the other end of the spectrum at homosexual.  Remember that Gender, Sexual Orientation, and Polarity are separate aspects of second charka energy.  Where this becomes really important to understand is for the transgender person or Gender Queer who can find this very confusing.  It has taken me years to understand it!

What makes this information valuable is if you are neutral, potential does not exist for you.  Think in terms of electricity and magnets.  If your polarity is neutral you neither attract nor repel, so in relationships this negates any possibility for sexual attraction.  On the orientation scale this would be asexual.  So what I am saying is without potential, no work gets done.  This aspect of your life remains idle.  Sexual energy transfer is how we charge the system (by having sex).  Being charged up gives us energy and purpose driving our actions.  The masculine shares physical energy in this transfer and the feminine shares mental and emotional energy so if you have one in excess or deficiency this will drive your attraction toward those who can balance your energy.  A person can be strongly charged and still in balance which is the goal here I suppose.  Meaning you have an abundance of all three energies.

Test these concepts as I present them here and see for yourself how they are true for you.  I share from my own experience and understanding and certainly do not claim to know all.  I do find this fascinating though and encourage others to get to know themselves better also.

The question for me arises; did I transition to balance my energy?  Being male born and attracted to neither sex, I first was attracted to females (with some mental coercion from my psyche as to what is proper) and then later to males (so again the psyche pushed me to be of opposite sex).  As it ends up I identify as Pansexual, but then identity is just your perception of reality (if there really is one)!

🙂 Sequoia Elisabeth

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Ancestral Forgiveness – Going With The Flow

During meditation today I had a deep insight into my “Journey of Love” or “my Life” or “this grand forgiveness exercise we call life”.  How the tapestry of family is woven together became clear to me, at least to a certain point.  Perhaps the more I ‘dream’ about this the clearer it will get.  The vision goes like this: 

the male body given me at birth functions to balance the abundant mental/emotional energies of the Divine Feminine already flowing through my being. (There is no denying this energy as it consumes all that I think, say, and do) Normally a woman would get Masculine energy from a male partner, but this is not how a transgender woman operates or at least not this one (me). The physical energy of the Divine Masculine comes with resistance or reluctance to me, but I have access to this energy when I am willing to embrace it. This resistance to Divine Masculine energy is part and parcel stemming from my Aunts and Grandmother who felt they could not find “a good man” and that in fact they did not even exist. Their painful relationships have flowed over into the next generation as it so often does when these issues are not faced, meaning forgiven.

(I am sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you – Hoʻoponopono Prayer)

Perhaps they had too much Masculine energy since they were living in a time consumed by it.  On a grander scale it could be said all of mankind was overwhelmed with this patriarchal masculine energy and we are now moving into an age of the Divine Feminine. 

Our ancestors are an important part of who we are because of the simple principle of Oneness.  We are them and they us!  This is why we need to know our ancestors and family lines as it gives us insight to who we are and the challenges we are facing.  It also gives us ample opportunity to work on them and by this I mean working to clear misconceptions, misdeeds, and karma.  It is a balancing of our energies which is nature’s constant function. The phrase “Go with the Flow” applies perfectly here.  We are not here to do anything, create anything, or even accomplish anything; we are here simply to balance the flow while simultaneously being the observer of life in this flow.  Perhaps this is what is meant by “being yourself”.  Let it Be!

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Birth Reality

To start let’s get one thing clear, much of this physical world makes no sense.  Let’s take Birth certificates for instance.  The Government and other agencies often use this document to verify identity and as proof of sex.  But just what is this document really?

Taken very simply it is a document created at your birth and records your perceived sex based on physical examination by a physician.  Usually your relative health is documented, a foot print is taken, the date and time is recorded and for all posterity you exist!

Eighteen years later or more this document is used to verify your identity, but the foot print is no longer useful as you have grown too much.  Surgery can change the physical sex, so this is no longer a valid verification of your present identity.  You could have healed any wounds present at birth depending on how severe, so this is not necessarily a measure of identity.

So what we really have here is documentation of your identity/condition at birth and does nothing to prove who you are now so many years later.  It really is a worthless document.  So why is it required to get a passport for instance?

The other issue which confounds me is why the Transgender population is up in arms over the inability to change this worthless document in four US states?  I just happen to be from one of these states and I could care less what this document says because it is no longer valid!  I am not that person any longer.  In fifty plus years I have changed tremendously, and in fact every cell in my body has been replaced multiple times!    It has even been proven now that our DNA changes over time and with the effects of the environment, so I ask again, why do we give so much weight to a historical document?

The best course of action for those concerned is to “go with the flow”.  Simply find a way around the absurd laws our society has created.  If you are so moved, then go out and fight to change these laws, but certainly do not allow these absurdities to disrupt your path or create disharmony in your life.

To truly live in the now we must operate as best we can from this point and not some past idea or future goal.  Yes, we remember the past and focus on future goals, but not as some concrete reality, but as an ideal.  Life is an experience … a feeling.  This is what we mean by the Now.  Know in your heart who you are and express this at every opportunity, not to impress others but to fulfill your inner being.  Life is too rich to be diluted with inconsistencies.

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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Transgender Is A Noun

The word Transgender is a noun and is not to be used as an adjective.  It is not a description per se, but a state of being.  I doubt you would ever call yourself maned or womaned, or even manized or womanized.  Gender is a state of being, it is not a condition.  This is not temporary within this lifetime.  This is the way we are born and the way in which we must live our entire lives!!

Identity is something unique to the human race or third density, because the very definition of third density is being self-aware and thus being aware of our identity.  A cat does not know it’s a cat, it just is.  The same goes for all animals because they are second density or not yet self-aware.  These concepts are not new or unique and I got my grasp on them through the 5 books “Law of One – The RA Material”.

Evolution is a path we are all on and even in the 3rd density some are just entering and others are in the process of shifting to 4th density and beyond.  Once a person evolves to 4th density they remain aware of the lower densities, but cannot see beyond where they are on the path.  This is the nature of evolution, so does this mean we move forward blindly groping in the dark?  No.  We have tools to navigate the unknown and the most useful I think is emotion/feeling.  The tools of the mind have been discussed in length on this blog so I will not go into each one and instead invite you to read “the Six Senses of the Mind” first published 6/30/2010.

What does identity consist of?  What are the degrees of identity if this is possible?  My answer is we start with Humanity, we are human.  This in itself is a major distinction even in this world.  We each have gender, man, woman, or transgender. (others may exist, it is your identity after all).  We each have race or ancestry and we each have socio-economic status.  We are born into these and to a great extent will have these the rest of our lives.  I know the last one is debatable, but when you really think about it 99% of the human race never change their socio-economic status.  How do you identify?  Traits can be a very long list, but do blue eyes really make you who you are?  Does gender?

The purpose here in this blog is to trigger a questioning and deeper exploration of identity. To invite you to clarify who you are and in the process perhaps broaden your definitions and connections.  I mean the ultimate identity is the One – God, Source Intelligence, Creator of all there is.  We are each an individuation of this One Source and part of being self-aware is to expand and deepen our understanding of who we are.  To fully grasp our connection to source while maintaining our individuation!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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The Perfect Example of the Law of Gender

I found the perfect example of the Law of Gender, San Francisco Bay and Manhattan Island, NY.  First of all we need to review the Seventh Universal Law;

The Law of Gender: “Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles”. The last of the seven Universal Laws is evident throughout creation in the so-called opposite sexes found not only in human beings but also in plants, minerals, electrons and magnetic poles to name but a few. Everything and everyone contains both the masculine and feminine elements. Among the outward expressions of Feminine qualities are love, patience, intuition and gentleness and of Masculine qualities are energy, self-reliance, logic and intellect. Know that within every woman lay all the latent qualities of a man and within every man those of a woman. When you know this you will know what it means to be complete.

SF Bay FeminineNature is a perfect example of the varying energies which surround us.  If you look at satellite maps of San Francisco bay you may notice the bay takes on the shape of female anatomy, with a vagina (channel leading into the bay), uterus (bay area around Alcatraz), and fallopian tubes (bay leads both south & north).

The big industries in this area are mostly internet based technologies, creative ventures which embody lots of feminine energy.  After all where do babies come from but the female womb?  We have seen some big births emerging from this area, the Dot Com boom, Silicon Valley, and the Universities which fuel this growth.  But this area is not the only example of gender manifesting in nature.  What about New York City?

NYC - MasculineThe island of Manhattan forms the perfect shape of a penis thus embodying masculine energy.   What are the big industries here?  Finance, commerce, and shipping.  There’s plenty of energy, self-reliance, logic, and intellect here!  Not to say there is no feminine energy here, but overall the land attracts a dominant energy and complimentary industries are born.  And so it is everywhere, just maybe not so obvious.

If you have ever spent time in these places then you will know the energy they embody.  Maybe this is why I love travel so much.  To feel the energy of a city and get to know the land it is found on.  There are no coincidences as to why certain towns are the way they are.  Most of the Spiritual centers around the world are located at altitude.  Take Tibet for instance or Lake Titicaca both over 12,000 ft. in elevation.  Both these locations are Spiritual centers of the Earth.  So what is the moral to this tale, simply that there is Power in Place.  Wherever you find yourself the place will amplify certain energies.  Awareness is the key to enlightenment, the doorway to other realms, and our reason for being!

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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From One Closet To Another

Is it helpful to go from one closet to another?  MTF or FTM?  Isn’t the point of coming out to stay out?  To define yourself as an individual and be proud of whom you are! This is an eternal question each person on the gender journey must resolve.  Perhaps the answer is not clear cut.  Perhaps this is the nature of being in question to begin with!

Gender when graphed looks like two mountains, one peak is male the other female.

gen_distrib Draw a vertical line through each peak and the area in between is the realm of transgender.  We fall in the middle and thus don’t really belong in either closet.  Also notice how quickly the lines fall off at the edges.  There are not many in the extremes of maleness or femaleness.  Easily sixty percent fall in the middle zone leaving the those who would consider themselves the majority surprisingly in error.

Of course there are other interpretations of this graph and it is not my place to define it for you, but only for myself.  So take this as an opinion and not fact.  There are no real facts, only perspectives and points of view.  So who are you?  How does that closet serve you?

closet hiding inPerhaps those who thought they were in a closet are in fact outside the closet and in reality it is the “mainstream” individual who lives in the closet, a strict definition of hetero/male or hetero/female which defines the closet.  The closet provides structure and perceived safety, but is in reality a trap of normalcy.

So, I ask you again… who are you?  How does that serve you?

Sequoia Elisabeth 🙂

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A Multi-Dimensional Being

The way you make love is the way God will be with you ~ Rumi

Have you considered how you connect with the rest of the world?  And I am not just speaking physically but multi-level… think chakras and the energy each manifests.   This is what is meant by a multi-dimensional being. This is who you are and perhaps a source of dysphoria or simply a feeling of not belonging.  Why do you feel this way, you know the feeling of being separate from everything.  Others don’t understand you and at times you don’t understand them either.  Is this feeling necessary to live in the world of physical matter?  Perhaps, however we are looking at the big picture today and your task is to relate this information to your own life and perspectives.

For more on the chakras and what I speak of there being different levels of being please read this article which is quite good at explaining each level of chakra, and remember each level has different dimensions(bodies) such as physical, emotional, mental, astral, etc. for more on this I found this article on human nature.

I realize this topic can be a bit overwhelming it has taken me many years to grasp only a fraction of this knowledge.  Take one step at a time and with only a little effort the puzzle pieces fall into place.  I can’t tell you how beautiful the finished product is because you must see that for yourself, and this could quite possibly be the reason you are here reading this now.

Moving on to another message which I find intriguing and again quite possibly the reason I am here writing this blog.  I wish to more fully understand and embrace my inner being.  This quote sums it up…

“When we touch the place in our lives where sexuality and spirituality come together, we touch our wholeness and the fullness of our power and at the same time our connection with a power larger than ourselves.”
― Judith Plaskow, Standing Again at Sinai: Judaism from a Feminist Perspective

Focusing more directly on just one aspect of the greater system, the second chakra in orchestra with the others seems to be extremely important to living a whole life.

“If sexuality is one dimension of our ability to live passionately in the world then in cutting off our sexual feelings we diminish our overall power to feel, know, and value deeply.”
― Judith Plaskow, Standing Again at Sinai: Judaism from a Feminist Perspective

How does this fit into the gender journey?  And, how does our relationship to other-self determine the quality of life we live?

The answer lies within each person uniquely.  Speaking from the transgender perspective I know I am a multi-dimensional being as I sense this acutely.  Even the label human feels odd to me and as I work down the path, male, caucasian, american, heterosexual, woman, each identity is ephemeral in reality.  Must I embrace my sexuality to define my being?  Can I be without orientation?  Is this desirable?  The quote above would suggest embracing ones sexuality is the key to a full expression of self.  From experience I have to agree.

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